Bittersweet if its not a win its a lose
To the self proclaimed fashion lovers doubting themselves you’re not alone!! We are the beautiful losers YEP including ME !!! Let me introduce myself!! My name is Meisha Warren I'm a super busy chaotically organised business professional / mummy / wife and I love everything fashions on the field. Only 2 years ago I found out about this treasured sport and I fell deeply in love. Finally I have found an outlet for me!! A place wear I can embrace my inner diva and dress like a princess!! . Show off my alter ego The classy Audrey Hepburn meets the Glamazon Marilyn Monroe Bring on the Stage and let me Strut my stuff!!
But its not all Fun – there’s that feeling afterwards that you failed that the masterpiece you have carefully put together is not good enough and you are left filling like SHIT! Questioning your style your shoes your bag your hair EVERTHING!! The truth behind loosing is it sucks and for me it happens time & time again but I don’t want to give up because I love how I feel when I'm on that stage. But just like today im doubting my self! Do I have enough in me to be able to accept rejection again?
I used to question why schools gave young children participation awards when they didn’t come first place in the running race , I thought it was a bad idea as in life we cant all be winners but maybe there is a reason behind doing it . I've never thought that much into it before but perhaps we need that recognition.. Well done you did great ! I see the sadness on my sons face when he looses a race and then I see his pride restored when he's given that participation medal its like his feeling of failure doesn’t exist anymore!! Do I want a medal of participation WELL YES MAYBE I DO !!!
I love supporting my local girls who take out the prizes and this is why its bittersweet I'm so happy for them, but I wish it was me. If you feel this way you’re not alone, I won’t give up but it’s the support and encouragement I get from the ladies on the field that say WOW you looked great that keeps me entering. I couldn’t deal with another loss!!! So when I feel like SHIT I think about all those beautiful women that complimented me I know they can see the effort and passion I’ve put into my outfit as they have with theirs This is my AWARD and without those kind words, you can get eaten alive in doubt and insecurities of Why am I not good enough. So I know we cant all get that sash but what I can do is notice the time love and effort the fashion sister beside me have put into their outfits . Your not alone my beautiful losers